grace & beauty; celebrate the person you have become!

 
 
In a blink it's funny how fast you can tell yourself a little white lie, and how in that same blink of an eye that little white lie can grow-depending on how much you feed it.  It's not that we particularly want to believe it, but maybe it is a nature-derived or inherent quality that drives us to strive for more in the end.  The built-in contrast that serves us in order for us to know our truth.

Have you ever felt low, down on yourself?  Despite really knowing you work hard, you play fair, you send out love, you really try? I think it is human nature to feel disheartened at times.  I really do.  We can be cruelest to ourselves unknowingly.  Judging ourselves, the negative self-talk, or even just adopting habits that are no good for us.   Lately as in the last few days, I've felt just that way.  As if no milestone ever reached mattered, as if no friend who loved me was justified in feeling that way, as if my  opinion or words or thoughts didn't matter.  I guess I was feeding those lies.  Subtly, unkindly towards myself.  I do know that isn't true.  I know I have friends that care for me.  I know I've been a good parent to my children.  A wise business woman.  A fair judge of character.  For every negative I know in my heart there is a strong positive BUT.  I needed to hear it.  I needed those words to be spoken loud and clear.  I really needed a good old fashioned ego-stroking.  I couldn't help that, I'm only human.

While working at home tonight {and no disrespect intended but I think some people believe that spa ownership is all butterflies and whale song, that we just float into work and float home again at closing time} I came across a book my mother bought me.  Over the years she has given me a lot of books, as a child she encouraged me to read as much as humanly possible. She has also encouraged me with love that I took for granted at times...sending me cards to lift my spirits when they were sagging, instead of lecturing me about my mistakes at times she would just put her arms around me and take my side even if I was wrong about whatever-it-was.  Well tonight right when I needed to hear it....out popped an old affirmation card she gave me years and years and years ago. 

It reads;

grace

&

beauty;

celebrate the person you have become

Okay.  I shall.  I raise my glass of Persian tea to me! To *tink* my own cup and wish myself many more successes, more rich friendships, more love, more experiences and then I'll congratulate myself on a job well done.  Because I truly needed to hear these words the Universe obliged and held my hand using my mother as an instrument of message delivery.

There are NO coincidences.  I was meant to find that card tonight. Has this ever happened to you? Ever go looking through books and find an old card tucked inside with a very timely message? Isn't that the coolest thing?

xo

{thanks, I love you}

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[The Lady Prism]

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Very beautiful writing.
I've been feeling the same way lately and this has lifted me up.

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[~Sheila~]

((((hugs))))
xo

[Marilyn]

Yes, that is the coolest thing for sure. I tell myself the same things from time to time and must remember to toast myself with tea each day. Love, love your Persian tea glass. That was one thing I wanted to buy when traveling to Jordan. Someday, maybe.

[Gillian daSilva]

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Marilyn Tara is still
going to Jordan!
You can sign up for the next one..! I’m going again too.  Sans hubby next time
I think. J It would be so
great to have you along!
 

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[gemma]

No coincidences. I have found letter's, old clipped newspaper articles,dated the very same day I found it (different year)MORE THAN ONCE!
Here is to the beautiful person you have always been.
clink clink
x

[Kath]

I love how the universe sometimes shakes her head when we are not paying attention to our beautiful selves and proceeds to drop a message right into our hands because Hello! You are amazing!

[susanna]

Awww...your mom loves you, Gillian. :) Boy did I need to read this post tonight. Thank you.

[jen]

cheers to you. and your sweet giving soul :)
I celebrated myself today, very proud of myself for something, FINALLY!!