I decided to look back in my archives {mess is more like it, ha ha!} to see what was happening "photographically speaking" a year ago today. It looks as though I was out with my camera at a local park at dusk, photographing peonies & dandelions & roses.
It had rained that day, and I remember the light as the sun was going down and wanting to zip out quickly with my camera. I froze. The weather was very cool, much cooler than it is this time this year. {Currently suffering a heat wave at the moment.}
I thought as I uploaded this picture about what was troubling me a year ago. Things that now I likely can barely remember and yet I'm sure at the time they stressed me out to no end. The time and energy wasted on worrying about these things stays with me and yet the little 'problems' do not. They in fact escape my memory altogether.
So, if this is true, and if it is true of most 'things' or 'problems', hadn't we best hold out for clear skies and not let it bother us so much? Could we wait a little longer, until whatever it is has burned off like the fog under a bright morning sun? Maybe like my dear wise mother says, we need to ask ourselves, "Will this matter one year from now?" If the answer to that is yes then by all means employ the help of family and friends to see you through. If the answer is no however, then shouldn't we let go of it? Allow the answer to come? Allow the happiness in despite ourselves? There is a power in letting go of control. Most would argue the opposite but truly I beg of you to try this. Let go. Let go of worry, sadness. Embrace a new day. If this is hard for you then simply reach out and ask for an opinion, a hug or a solution.
The troubles of last year simply faded away and I'm still standing. {Faced with a whole new set but that is besides the point.} I'll take my own advice and see what happens.
Dream on...xoxo
This post has inspired me to look back and see where I was in May of '09. I leave with a message of hope from you, my friend, and a lighter heart. Thanks for being you, Chica!! xoxo
Posted by: Ily | May 27, 2010 at 09:00 PM
PS - What a beautiful photo!
Posted by: Ily | May 27, 2010 at 09:01 PM
I can do this for moments at a time - release it all, be "happy" in the present, satsified. But what I don't get is why it is such a struggle to be that way more of the time and/or to be like that a majority of the time...I guess that is just this bittersweet life - a balance to the good and the bad, and our Selves doing the balancing act...
Dream on, Beautiful Gillian, and know I dream along with you...
Posted by: Kim Mailhot | May 27, 2010 at 09:51 PM
I never thought to look back "blog wise" a year ago. I should. To see where I was.
I think the key is to always plant that seed of hope, improvement and change. It is good to aspire to more.
Ily you are a light in my life chica. Tink! My red wine glass is raised to you tonight!
xo
Posted by: Gillian daSilva | May 27, 2010 at 10:17 PM
I don't know. I do the same thing Kim.
I think I'm trying right now not to "react" to life so much. I am absorbing, taking it in, processing it, and then I'm acting (I hope) appropriately.
But we are human. We struggle. I think it's important that we are just here for each other at the end of the day.
xoxo
Posted by: Gillian daSilva | May 27, 2010 at 10:19 PM
my rabbi always has the same words, what impact will this really be having on me a year from now. can i find a way to move on quickly?
Posted by: margie | May 28, 2010 at 08:35 AM
Hello Gillian,
It's great and creative that you took time to look at your transformation! Your heart and mind are in the right place! Your mother's advise is wise! Blogging also, gives one this amazing opportunity.
Just yesterday, sitting at the oncologist with my mom, I realized how much, (like you), I have grown inside. I remember the first time I walked through these doors at the Cancer Center, how impossible the situation seemed. Bit by bit I have learned to become stronger. To handle things. It's hard to believe, but I am becoming a real grown up!! ;-)
xox
Constance
Posted by: Rochambeau | May 28, 2010 at 08:53 AM
Letting go of control - that is the key. Because we don't have it...except of our own reactions and responses to things. Beautiful entry...you are so wise my friend.
Posted by: Swirly | May 28, 2010 at 11:05 AM
There's a lot of truth here. Most of what bothers me doesn't really matter. I am working on letting it all go - sooner rather than later. Most quickly than before...
Posted by: Relyn | May 28, 2010 at 11:09 AM
Loved what you said here. It is very true.
Thing is when we are going through it it seems so darn important.
It is only in retrospect we know for sure!
Time is indeed a great great problem-solver.
Lovely pic too
Have a Great weekend gillian!
xoxoxo
preeti
Posted by: Preeti Shenoy | May 28, 2010 at 07:19 PM
Good post, this is something I have struggled recently with. Trying to come out of it.
Love the new clean look for summer.
Posted by: Marilyn | May 30, 2010 at 12:04 AM
We've often used that bit of advice around here. With a little time, problems solve themselves. It's like what was the big deal yesterday? Yet you are so right.Stress takes a lot of energy. Sending you PEACE for this day and always.
Posted by: gemma | May 30, 2010 at 01:43 PM
I like to do that, too. Except right now it would be counter-productive, as i was madly joyfully ass over teakettle in love 1 year ago. I don't think reading all those old love poems would do me any good, now that I am finally over that person. Like, as of...last week lol.
I don't know if it is a holiday up there or not, but have a wonderful weekend, lady!
Posted by: Shay | May 31, 2010 at 09:58 AM
You couldn't have written this post at a better time for me! WOW.It is amazing..truly. I want t othank you for all that you have offered to me. always know that you are a true friend! I will email you. Thank you for writing this post, my rich in blessings and wealthy in spirit friend!
Posted by: pam aries | May 31, 2010 at 04:06 PM
The post is WOW !! Its written beautifully. Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful thought :)
Posted by: Sunita Nayak | June 01, 2010 at 06:06 AM
More and more I learn that time does actually heal...To hang on a little longer to a solution to a problem, to allow some time to ease a hurt or disappointment. In our get-it-done-yesterday modern world maybe we expect things to be solved in an instant. Even allowing one day can make such a difference. We act and react so much. Taking a breath and allowing time...ah, yes! A year ago I was posting about arriving safely home from a trip. And just now I'm doing the same...What odd balance there! Happy Day, Gillian ((HUGS))
Posted by: Tracy | June 01, 2010 at 06:49 AM